Things are not gonna change magically. Things do change all the time. There is a double edge to Hope.
On one side, Hope is what you count on when things are not what you expected them to be and you hope that in the future it'll be different.
On the other side, Hope is the change that you want to see in the world. Both of them are things created from nothing.
More specifically Hope is created from assumptions and expectations of what the world is and isn't or should or shouldn't be like. In this video I discovered that Hope is ingrained so deeply inside of the programming of my Thoughtware, that it was quite the liquid maneuver to talk about it.
I noticed that it has its own self defense mechanism, that I couldn't touch it without touching what I considered "myself", which revealed a part of my box or my survival strategy. I discovered that Hope is a doorway to liquid state and growing consciousness when used with the context of Radical Responsibility.
From this point of origin, "hope" distills into love, transformation, change, clarity about my life's purpose, depending on what time cycle im in (present moment, minute cycle, daily cycle, weekly cycle, monthly cycle, yearly cycle, lifetime cycle).
When I use Hope as a victim, or when hope is solid/fixed/crystalized, I'm avoiding responsibility because I'm letting something else other than myself here and now open up to discover what that Hope is.
Fabulous Experiments to get out of Fantasy Worlds!
FACE THE FEAR OF IDENTIFYING YOUR OWN PERSONAL FANTASY WORLDS
Clearly, this is an Experiment in Fear. If Fear is frightening for you, it might be useful to participate in a Fear Club before doing this Experiment.
The Experiment is simple, and scary. Bring yourself and your Beep! Book to your PTeam (or to some other awake and dangerous group of people) and ask for a half hour of group intelligence time to write down without question what other people estimate and perceive the Fantasy Worlds that your life is built around. For example, here are some domains you can look into:
• About the reality of politics
• About having enough money or not
• About being beautiful or not
• About being a good person or not
• About being friends with your friends • About your parents and childhood being good or bad • About whether you have a nice house or not • About what career you should be doing • About your 10 year life plan
• Your retirement plans
• About how your parenting should be
Ask your Team to be clear and specific about what they perceive. Yes, it is true that the Fantasy World they can see is often a projection. They can see it because they have the same Fantasy World. Do not make this into a discussion. This is a research Experiment and the result will be a long list of possible Fantasy World bubbles that you have been living inside of for a good part of your life. Please note that a Fantasy World is not good or bad or right or wrong. It is a survival strategy and since you survived, the Fantasy World has served its purpose. The question arising now is, is it now time for you to let go of a Fantasy World and enter a closer bond with the place that you can actually take your next steps from.
2 Matrix Points.
LOGO: CONSCIOUS FEAR
FACE INTO THE FANTASY WORLD ABOUT YOU EVER BEING OKAY
A number of people, especially people doing Healing and Transformational work, carry a Fantasy World that, after enough Healing and Initiation and Transformation, they will arrive. You will arrive at this point where everything is okay. Which would probably include not having big Emotions about anything. The purpose of this Experiment is to look into: what does this Fantasy World of 'Everything is Okay' look like?
This is best done in a Team, either in pairs or groups of 3, where you have your eyes closed and you look into this wish, this hope, that you will finally get there. The 'there' part. Tell people - go into this place. Make it as if you are already there. You are there, and tell the people how you would be and how are the other people. How are you behaving and how are they behaving because everything is okay. Nobody will ever blame me, I will always do the right thing at the right time. How does it go for you? How does it go in your Fan
Hint about this: there are 2 main categories of Boxes.
There are 'I am not okay' Boxes, where the main survival experience is 'I am not okay'.
And then there are 'I am okay' Box. Where the main survival experience is 'I am great, I am wonderful, I am okay'.
Both of them are bullshit. Both of them are survival Fantasy Worlds.
The point is - being alive means having Feelings. Being alive means being in the unknown. Being alive means evolving, not achieving a Fantasy steady state of perfection and stability.
Feel into the emotions that it actually creates to have this Fantasy World, or beating yourself up, threatening yourself, manipulating. And what benefit? You have reasons to be abused because
The proof is: make a selfie video and share about how it is to have a Fantasy World about getting
LOGO: bullshit detector
FORM A 3CELL TO JOURNEY INTO THE SHADOW SIDE OF YOUR FANTASY WORLDS
LOGO: 3 WORLDS
In your first meeting with your 3cell, start preparing yourselves to make your journey into the shadow world, which means just to explore those parts of yourself that have been suppressed or repressed or ignored or confused - kept out of your awareness.
Arrange so that one person at a time, in this case you, goes first. The other two people are lifelines back to the Ordinary.
A journey into the shadow lands is Extraordinary. Because it is done consciously, on purpose, using your conscious Will.
The main part of this exercise is to choose 3 Fantasy Worlds you identified int he first Experiment, and, 1 at a time, go to the point in your life when you initiated or made a contract to sub,it yourself to a Fantasy World.
You can imagine a FW like a vampire cloud, which gets its existence from your Belief. When you believe in the FW it gives the FW some of your energy and that is how it stays alive.
So e.g. the FW that the good strong noble handsome holy man will ride up on a white horse and rescue the damsel and take her off to a life and luxury and pleasure and power on the castle on the hill for ever with a cherry on top and lots of whipped cream - if you Notice in your daily interactions, you will see that there is part of your attention and energy flowing into your FW, to keep it alive.
The experience is this wish, this longing.
The original purpose to journey into your shadow world to find the original contract to have made this FW to save your life.
Find out why you did it. And also which part of reality you got disconnected from, when you took on the cloud like fantasy parasite in your life.
Switch in the next meeting.
FACE INTO YOUR FANTASY WORLD OF 'CONNECTION'
logo: evolution of relating
You and other people often say: 'I want to be connected with you'. Just in that sentence, you live in a FW that you think you know what connection means, you think you know that other people agree with you about what connection means, that they have the same definition, and you live in a FW that you are not already connected with other people and that they are not connected with you.
Read the 'evolution of relating' website. Each step in the evolution of relating is a different quality of connection and intimacy.
Be radically honest with yourself about what you mean, right now with 'I want to connect with you'. The question is: what do you mean? What do you want?
What are the unmet needs of each of your 5 Bodies and Ego States? Including your Gremlin, Demon, Child and Parent Ego State.
After you have listed those unmet needs, you might start getting a clearer picture of the FW of connection that you live in.
And you have been trying to force other people to meet you in your FW of connection. Or you have been trying to manipulate people to fulfill your unmet needs, instead of saying would you hold my hand, read me a story, drink a tea with me, instead of saying what you want.
This is extremely damaging for any kind of relating. So often, both people in the relating live in some kind of FW about what it is. For the continuation of the Experiment, for an entire week, pay attention to when your FW of connection is at work, driving you crazy, probably triggered by your unmet needs.
A bonus Experiment is to notice, to pay attention to other people's fantasy worlds of relating, trying to manipulate you to fulfill your unmet needs. And consider saying: I am not available for being manipulated, what do you really want? Can you say what you want?
2 Matrix Points.
IDENTIFY THE FANTASY WORLDS YOU CARRY ABOUT THE FANTASY WORLDS OF OTHER PEOPLE
LOGO: SELF OBSERVATION
Fot eh next 10 days, focus your Self Ob ont he stories, criticisms, judgments, jealousies, outrage, not okay-ness stories in your mind that come up for you about other people who seem to be successfully living in their FW. For example, you see a business man who lives in the FW that they are successful or rich. Or eg you see a professor or a teacher that has written a book that they are important famous
Athlete that just won the olympics and identify your FW about their FW that you might think their FW is true or real when actually it is only a FW.
Part of your FW is that you might want to be like them or might not want to be like them and in ant case you are wrong.
The way to identify your FW about their FW is: write each one down in your Beep! Book. This is an Experiment in self observation. It is not an experiment in beating yourself up or making yourself wrong.
Write an article about something like Meta Fantasy Worlds. 'My Meta FW'. Make it as clear and specific with your examples , as if you are a scientist studying the phenomena of Meta FW. The purpose of the article is awareness expansion of the reader so that they can consider their own Meta FW.
3 Matrix Points.
Put link to article as proof.
PARTNER UP AND GO ON A FANTASY WORLD HUNTING EXPEDITION
Logo: Sword of Clarity.
The E is: arrange with a partner to set aside 4 hours to enter the shopping zone or downtown or the streets of ordinary pleasantville of life (link to movie pleasantville). Bring your video recorders and shoot 5 to 15 second long segments of a FW in action, all forms of marketing and advertising use a FW as the bait to trap you into what they are trying to sell you. Your job is to hunt down and capture on your video camera short videos of a 100 campaigns, trying to capture your heart and soul into their FW so you buy what they are selling.
This also includes the dentist and supposedly Edgeworking. For a special part of hunting, enter the special territory of new age cafe or yoga centre and examine the flyers and announcements for worktalks, talks, experiences, ayahuasca experiences where they dangle the FW and put make up on the FW to attract the vampire's victims.
Take your 5-15 videos, put them all together into one video and then do a monologue of your Sword of Clarity speaking to name the hook that is being used to set the FW in your heart and soul with 30 percent rage from the Clarity.
That will be a successful hunt. Post the link in the Proof Section.
3 Matrix Points.
FACE INTO YOUR FANTASY WORLD THAT PEOPLE ARE INHERENTLY GOOD
This FW is pervasive and omnipresent. Ths effect of this FW is to put you asleep and be naive about the reality of what Human Beings are, which is a high number of different parts smashed together (logo: parts).
One of their parts is Being, which is pretty neutral. One of their parts is their Box, their Gremlin, their Child Ego state, Parent Ego State, Bright Principles.
Part that talks to the mother, the police, the child, the dog.
Each of these parts have different needs, different vocabulary, different fantasy world, different purpose.
To fall asleep with the FW that people are good or that the person you are talking to is really the person you are talking to, as if you have no other parts, makes you completely acailable for abuse, betrayal and revenge. And then you wonder why this happened to you.
This Experiment is, for 1 week, to increase your Conscious Fear about this clarity of 'people have parts'. so that you can notice when someone is talking to you, which part of them is talking to you.
That you do not make the assumption that the part is talking to you, is the only part they are and that will be always the only part that talks to you.
That they do not have 20 other parts that are completely contradictory.
To test your theory, dial up another part of the person that you are talking to.
Find ways to talk to the different parts of the person. By navigating space into other conditions and other quality of space, where there is competition or outrage or cowardliness or revenge or sweet loving care, all these spaces, and see if you dial up another part in the other person.
GIVE UP YOUR FANTASY WORLD THAT YOU WILL EVER HAVE ENOUGH TIME
”– you know, I’ve either had a family, a job, something has always been in the way but now I’ve sold my house, I’ve found this place, a large studio, you should see the space and the light. for the first time in my life I’m going to have a place and the time to create.”
no baby, if you’re going to create you’re going to create whether you wor k 16 hours a day in a coal mine or you’re going to create in a small room with 3 children while you’re on welfare, you’re going to create with part of your mind and your body blown away, you’re going to create blind crippled demented, you’re going to create with a cat crawling up your back while the whole city trembles in earthquake, bombardment, flood and fire.
baby, air and light and time and space have nothing to do with it and don’t create anything except maybe a longer life to find new excuses for.
Read this poem 5 times to different people in different situations.
Use each time you read it, you build a component of a detector, a FW detector of a FW 'when I hajve enough time..'
'when I have enough air, life, time space', then, I will..
I will paint, write, sing, dance, I will go to Kathmandu.
Each time you read the poem you build a part of this detector to detect these FW when I get enough time, love, Possibility, then I will
but particulary with time, when I get enough.
And that thing is drinking your life energy up.
FW are part of an energetic context that devours your life energy to live.
Don't worry, if you exit yourself from the ecology as a food supply, the FW will not starve to death because there are plenty of zombie people out there that they can feed on. Do not worry that you are contradicting Buddhist dogma by starving different Beings from their food, torturing little Beings
You walk around and see this quivering little starving FW and think oh have a little bit of my energy.
FACE INTO YOUR FANTASY WORLD THAT PEOPLE ARE INHERENTLY BAD
MEET YOUR RELATIONSHIP FANTASY WORLD: YOUR RELIGIONSHIP