Building and living in Fantasy Worlds is a survival strategy, that means it was necessary for you to use those fantasy worlds to survive. That is all right, nor good nor bad. Having landed here it might be time to shift your relationship to the fantasy worlds that you live in. Fantasy Worlds are a much more common survival strategy as first thought. Mostly everybody is running around with some kind of fantasy. then we can start distinguishing how much of each persons life is based on fantasy. This is up to you to discover how much you live in fantasy. Warning: Do not give this job in the hands of your underworld. It will create a fantasy world about how much you are in fantasy worlds. This is a job for radical honesty with yourself, decontamination and the feedback and coaching of your team. It is a fantasy to think that you can do any of this work alone. You can not. The quality of the survival in fantasy is to much taking you out of reality that you could find your "X-on-the-map" on your own. If you thing now "yeah, yeah, but I can do it, I know I have fantasies and so I can do it and discover them, get out of them if I want" Your are lying to your self. And this is where fantasy starts.
Fantasy World is a strategy to protect you from reality, to protect you from the pain in your life and the horror that is really happening. It is based on unmet childhood needs & as those need have not been met and as you have been too small to face into reality as a child you created a second reality. Outside of the fantasy there is something uncomfortable, something painful for the box, gremlin and being happening. so uncomfortable that your rescue yourself into what you would WANT to be true. What you WANT to be the reality that you are living in. And the fantasy erases the horror that you can not handle, because if you would see what is actually going on(as the child) you would die. Later one your gremlin erases also simply the things that you don't want to hear. The things you do not want to identify with so you get to ignore them as you are living in fantasy anyways.
You might be thinking now: "but well if I would built a fantasy for me to live in then I would built it perfect, no? I would create it without problems and with no pain and the perfect relationships." That is another fantasy world. Human beings have really smart gremlins. Your gremlin will play in this fantasy worlds and will create it so that you suffer and complain and persecute(spelling?) and be a victim and just smash it all in, all the yummy low drama it can get will be implemented in the fantasy world as it is how you THINK the world works. It would be a bit to obvious for modern culture if you would be to happy, wouldn't it?
Fantasy becomes so real, so true that it is like a second layer of the world. Imagen the a few of the ocean or the mountains, fantasy layes over it as real as possible, you still see the mountains but there are some significant differences. It's slightly more pink, like putting a filter over it. Fantasy world has a different energetic vibration that what is real. something is a little off, for you in the fantasy it seems like nothing. Just a little weird. You can start scanning for those moments, those sensation when the world you are standing in looks, smells, feels, seems to be just a tiny bit off.
A life in fantasy or different fantasies at the same time means not having a grip on reality. With that comes the loss of the power of doing. It is impossible to do in fantasy. When I am taking about doing here, I am talking of “doing” in the sense of creation. You still have a box, your box knows how to brush your theeth, even though this can happen in fantasy as well. Ok, doing/ creating is not possible. With force yes, I can force stuff to happen, circumstances to occurs though it is not fully satisfying. It is not fully nourishing because it takes energy away. The price is that by all you are creating you are using your own bodies energy, the deep batteries of your 5-body system because there is no access to let the thing you create give you energy as they need to be forced into reality. One day, this energy will be empty; it will be so over the edge empty that it can not recharge itself. I never really understood what people mean if they say not to use my own energy, now I do because I ran out of it. Completely and fully.
Example: While living in phantasy I would imagen how i would read the book because I want to read the book but instead wasting so much time imagining “reading” that I would not actually take the book in my hand, I fulfilled the wish of reading by imagining it. The imagination would be really precise and go step by step like this: “I could take the book in my hand, it smells so good and its not even half a meeter away, its such a beautiful book, I am sad that it looks so used already, well but actually it is also great, so at least it is used. Even more sad those books who are untouched. Probably the next pages are amazing, I remember the last page, it was amazing. I am wondering how it will continue, so many possibilities.….” And so on and on and on. After that I would get pressured by my gremlin as I didn’t really read but also not wanting to do it anymore, being to drained by the imagination of it. Nothing happens. Even though nothing happens in my system I would keep the sensation of “I am reading the book” alive and it was so strong that I would not notice that actually already two weeks passed since I last read an actual page.
Being in fantasy protects you from your own world, from your wounds but there is another layer of price you pay for living in fantasy. Crashing out of it you will start to feel and with that no longer being able to avoid to look at the consequences of modern culture, of the behaviour of human beings, the pain of modern culture and you might discover this gigantic wish for a next culture, for a different culture that is not killing the planet. You might no longer ignore the anger you have about the world and about how land of Gaia gets raped over and over again. You can not pretend anymore that you would not care. You can not say “it is not so bad”. Because out of the fantasy the pain of trying to pretend is like fire cutting through your bodies, it becomes visible, "feelable" if you are lying to yourself. Your numbnessbar is going down. You can not pretend to have patience for people if you do not have it. You will feel the anger of not wanting to open another door or of wanting to do so. Your will not be able to adapt, if you do, you are back in your fantasy. This does not mean that you automatically have discovered all your dimensions in which you adapt. Do not go into the next fantasy. Slowly all those lies will become visible, you will recognise self-abuse and feel the impact of it. For the first time in this liquid state it helps to not think so much, just do. Do one thing after the other & keep feeling, keep beathing. Even if you cry longingly while using your physical body, let it happen. Do not stop.
